A Very Special Someone

I am going to end up with someone very special.

Do you want to know why I think this? Because I have a chronic illness, which makes dating me worlds more complicated than the average person.

I have been dumped because of things I can’t control — like my skewy autonomic nervous system, which often makes me feel sick or unable to do normal twentysomething activities. People don’t always sympathize with the struggles I go through every day, and I know it is incredibly difficult to see someone you love hurting.

My guy doesn’t just have to be a physical supporter for me, but he also has to serve as an emotional rock when I get frustrated with life. Some days are more painful and exhausting than others, and sometimes I just can’t think straight through the dizziness and brain fog. I need someone who will be patient with me and remember that I have a good heart.

Some days I will be cranky, but I don’t mean anything by it — I’m just not feeling well. So the last thing I need in a partner is someone who can remember how much I love him, even on the hard days. I need someone who will keep in mind that I’m still the same person, even when I’m incredibly sick and some of my best traits might be hidden behind pain. He will need to be able to remember that I still love him with all my heart, I’m just sometimes too darn tired to show it.

People like this aren’t a dime a dozen. Unconditional love is really difficult to find, and meeting someone who is willing to start a relationship with someone who already has complications isn’t always easy. The people I have met, though, who have been willing to go through the hard stuff in the beginning of our relationship are so incredibly special. These are the people who will be there for better and worse, and this is the kind of guy I eventually want to end up with. I guess in some ways I am lucky that I’m not always the easiest person to love since I have no choice but to weed out people who won’t stick around through tough times. I will end up with a 1 Corinthians 13 man.

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Today’s lesson: Take whatever it is that makes you feel different or unlovable, and realize that you are beautifully unique and you are stronger because of the struggles you have gone through. Realize that not everybody will love you with them, but the right person will absolutely love the entire package you have to offer. Just because you have a disability, baggage from your past, or struggle with something today does not mean you will never find love. It just means you need to wait for someone really, incredibly special to be a good fit for you. People like us kind of lucked out in that regard, I guess, because we can’t settle for an ordinary love. We have to be patient and wait on one that will hold the test of time and make it through the crazy curveballs life throws at us.

10 thoughts on “A Very Special Someone

  1. We all have things that are hard to deal with, but the right person won’t find them hard to deal with at all. It’s tough to find someone who can handle your different/unlovable parts, but that’s what makes them so worth it when you finally find them 🙂 You deserve the best!

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    1. Yes, I agree with you completely!! I also think there are plenty of people who are happy to deal with the good and the bad — it sometimes just takes awhile to find them. I’m glad I kept looking and didn’t give up hope just because of having my heart broken in the past. 🙂 You deserve the best too, girl! ❤

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  2. I’m confused! Did you & Robert break up? 😦
    I agree with the comment up there that says your posts are always full of so much positivity, even when I can tell you were struggling to survive that day. You’re an inspiration – and I see a lot of myself in you. Finding some good, and a solid lesson, in everything. .xo.

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    1. Oh gosh no!!! Darn, though, he said this post was confusing and people might think that, but I meant for it to be encouraging! I actually wrote it with him in mind, as he’s been such a great person and support to me. I think I might have to update the post to clarify later, haha. 🙈

      But I love that we are so similar; I definitely think it’s so important to look for positives in life. Thanks so much for your kind words! 💕💕💕

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      1. oh PHEW!!! My heart sank for you – LOL. I’m glad he’s around, and he reads your posts. SO sweet!!! Tell him Hello from Nevada 🙂
        I look forward to your optimism, honestly. It keeps me going.
        .xo.

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      2. Hahaha aww you are just too sweet! Thank you for caring about my heart so much; that means so much to me! And I sure will; he’ll be excited to hear from a friend on the west coast. He went and visited Nevada for the first time just a few weeks ago, actually!

        Have a great evening, girl, and please keep in touch! ❤

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